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soo. last annual, had abnormal pap, got colposcopy, they said "meh it's just what we thought, nothing serious, not cancer, just get a pap in a year." now PP says it's time for my annual again. what will they do when my pap is abnormal AGAIN? i do NOT want to go through another colposcopy.

also, i really really really hate exams. not just like "meh dentist-like annoyance"..but i start crying and refuse to remove my hands from covering my genitals until repeatedly asked if i want to reschedule. i am terrified of anyone, even the clinician, seeing my parts. i still don't let my boyfriend ever do anything to me in the light. how to ever ever get over this? i know that everyone's cooch is different. variety is normal. intellectually, i get this. but to ME, the combination of my huge thighs and my disgusting, huge, gross snatch just..seems like it can't be anything like any doctor has ever seen before. i worry that they will definitely judge me and go home and laugh about me to their husband or whatever. is there any way to feel any better about this besides telling myself "you're normal, everyone has different noonoos"?

So, the MenstroMonster™ (term courtesy of paraxeni) has decided to grace me with copious and extended vomiting upon its arrival this cycle. Since this has happened before and since the vomiting happens when the pain gets past a certain threshold, I do think it's my period causing it and not any bacteria or viruses. I've not kept down solid food since Tuesday night, and I don't see this changing for at least another day when my flow will probably get heavier. (Yay?)

I've been subsisting on the meal replacement drinks (Boost/Ensure/generic equivalents) mostly because the vanilla flavor is pretty bland -- important because even the liquid food is not guaranteed to stay put. Also small amounts of water frequently throughout the day. Just wondering, though, if anyone has additional tips for maintaining proper hydration, which at this point is my biggest concern, as well as nutrition, which is getting to be a secondary issue.

In the meantime, I will be writing my uterus a strongly worded letter. It already owns my pelvic cavity, low back, hips, lower GI tract, and sometimes head (thank you, menstrual migraines). It needs to know that it is NOT allowed to take over other organs and systems as well. :/

I don't know how many of you crochet, but as I was wandering around Ravelry I found this lovely pattern for a fawn that looks exactly like Ap's Milky Chan!

Pattern is not free and can be found here: http://www.pepika.com/pattern-fawn.html

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Hallo everybody! I just got in a few Rilakkuma planners and a stand-up calendar for 2010. I know it's a little late but if you are interested, please check them out at my site paperparadise ! I also updated a few other sections with a new Rilakkuma letter set and stamp set!

Click here to go to the planners & calendar section: paperparadise.livejournal.com/5149.html or just go to paperparadise to check everything out. Thanks and happy new year :D

I'm so excited!

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